7.28.2008

Questions for my parents

  • Did you look at me like I look at Oliver and Alexander?
  • Were you as unable as I am now to express adequately the love you had for this small addition to your life?
  • Could you ever kiss me enough?
  • Did my smiles and laughs make your heart swell so that you could actually feel a lump in your chest?
  • Did your heart break every time I cried?
  • Did you secretly wish I would wake in the middle of the night crying just so you could hold me?
  • Did I frustrate you when I did wake up too often?
  • Did you have mixed emotions about seeing me grow—excited to see me experiencing the world, but sad to know the days of infancy were going to end?
  • Did you ever tire of watching me?
  • Did I change you—not just your life, but you, who you were?
Knowing how you would answer these questions makes me love you even more.  It's hard for me to understand that I was (am?) to you what Alexander and Oliver are to me.

[No special occasion.  These things were simply on my mind.]

1 comment:

Sonny said...

A resounding yes to all of your questions. You will still have many of those emotions when Alexander and Oliver are 36!You and Brad are Daddy and my finest accomplishments--not perfect but amazing to us both. Our grandchildren are equally as amazing! We love you all, miss you terribly, and wish we were all physically closer to one another!
Mama