Questions for my parents

• Did you look at me like I look at Oliver and Alexander?
• Were you as unable as I am now to express adequately the love you had for this small addition to your life?
• Could you ever kiss me enough?
• Did my smiles and laughs make your heart swell so that you could actually feel a lump in your chest?
• Did your heart break every time I cried?
• Did you secretly wish I would wake in the middle of the night crying just so you could hold me?
• Did I frustrate you when I did wake up too often?
• Did you have mixed emotions about seeing me grow—excited to see me experiencing the world, but sad to know the days of infancy were going to end?
• Did you ever tire of watching me?
• Did I change you—not just your life, but you, who you were?

Knowing how you would answer these questions makes me love you even more.  It's hard for me to understand that I was (am?) to you what Alexander and Oliver are to me.

[No special occasion.  These things were simply on my mind.]